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08:47pm 12/11/2004
  porcelain doll
fresh and new
just out of the box
for a baby girl

porcelain doll
rugged and ragged
tons of love
from a little girl

porcelain doll
stiff and alone
neglected on a shelf
by a lost girl

porcelain doll
fallen and broken
tossed out alone
from a girl all alone
in a box of her own		  
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04:24pm 04/08/2004
  step closer and closer
with each passing day
feeling more hopeful
with our future so near
a day does not pass
without thinking of you
a night hardly goes by
without wishing you near		  
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10:53am 16/06/2004
  In my head
Ideas swarm
Tears pour down
Upon the ground
My mind explodes
With harsh reaction
End all fears
With interaction
My love for you
Unfolds each day		  
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sucks but yeah whatever   
11:13am 04/06/2004
  Things go down with paper and pen
far better then I could ever say them
words come out all mumbled and jumbled
when spoken directly to you
feelings flow much better through here
but it isn’t the same and I know this
just to show my feelings and care		  
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to soon?   
10:37am 04/06/2004
  To soon to feel all of this
To soon to know everythings alright
To soon to know what is true
To soon to know how I feel for you
To soon to know that’s whats real
To soon to know anythings this way
To soon to know this is all I want
To soon to know if youd agree
To soon to know anything…..		  
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11:45pm 18/05/2004
  you make me think
twice before i speak
make me look both ways
before i say whats on my mind
you make me breath
when i forget
you make me stop and think
when i fret
you make me smile
all day long
the time before this
if it ever existed
was long gone and forgotten
the day you smiled my way
the day i took a step closer
the day i noticed that speck
so small so hidden
so sweet to see
so soft was your touch
your lips and eyes
your mind your words
the world stopped turning
when i noticed what id been missing
all this time in front of my eyes		  
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11:53am 18/05/2004
  Sitting here now
Thinking of you
Wondering
Hoping
Wishing
Wanting
To be closer
To always know
To always care
Longing to be held
Losing intrest in all else
Thinking of getting lost
In your eyes
The only safe place I know		  
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11:52am 18/05/2004
  Running scared
Running still
Turning back
Falling down
Skinned knees
Scrapes and bruises
Lying still
Don’t get caught
Hope all will pass
Rushing now
Down hill fast
Going forward
Don’t look back
Don’t forget
Where you’ve come from
Don’t lose your past for good		  
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05:57pm 04/05/2004
  a contradiction of terms
a turn of your words
what u see is what you get
but fuck all of that
(finish later)		  
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05:49pm 04/05/2004
  In an instant everything can change
What you see isn’t always what you get
In me this is true
In my body my heart sings for just you
If you see this smile
Know it isn’t real
See it waver under pressure
See it callpse when you turn away
Watch the tears flow freely
With no effort at all
Know this isn’t true
You never really see me
You never truly know		  
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10:40pm 03/05/2004
  not that this matters
nor should you care
i wish the day would come
youll always be there
looking and wishing the same star
every nite
hopeing and saying the words
just right		  
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09:32am 03/05/2004
  You asked me to draw you a picture
I did even though I cant draw
You said it was bad
You asked me to write you a poem
I did although they never turn out
You said it didn’t ryhmn
You asked me to sing you a song
I did and I cant carry a tune
You said it was awful
You asked me tell you I love you
I did even though I was scared to
You told me I didn’t mean it
You told me to give you the world
I gave you all I could
You said it wasn’t good enough
With everything you ask of me
I do without a thought
With everything I do for you
You tell me its wrong
Its never good enough
I never mean it
With everything in me
Ive meant it all		  
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01:14am 03/05/2004
  i see you scratched
i see you torn
ripped to no end
fucked in your dream
faced with no reality
crying out your pain
with no one to listen
searching for something
not sure what it is
listening for words
no one will speak
locked in a room
keys have been lost
four white walls
closing in so close
faster and faster
each new day		  
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12:15am 29/04/2004
  i dont know what you want me to be
but i cant be you
try as i might
that smile will alwasy waiver
my life long goal
to make you proud of me
although i know you cant be
it hurts me to think
but im sure it is true
everything was better before me
you couldve said no
you couldve walked away
im sure youll only deny any of this true
but i also know your jsut like me
and lie as you might
i can see through that light
and know you never wanted something
just like me		  
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12:10am 29/04/2004
  i sit in here
my own little prison
a prison of my choice
a light flickers on and off
and still i sit in the silence
beyond the wall i hear you move
i feel your presence
listen in the dark to your sorrowful sobs
the pain going right through me
i feel your words
i know your thoughts
i see the marks on your flesh
the things you keep
way deep inside
i see in your face
and you dont even notice
when i look in your eyes
i know your steps
and follow closely
the shadows jump out and scare you
grab my arm and hold on tight
being alone in the dark is worse
then being apart in the light		  
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life   
06:48pm 19/04/2004
  left for dead before even born
beaten and bruised
just a baby
cut and torn
cut try to die
drunk rape fracktured
smack crack gunshot
blood pain, shes gone
broken down again
swallow pills make it go away
slit cut blood falls
heart torn in two
cry alone left for dead
no one even noticed she was sad...		  
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06:41pm 19/04/2004
  i have thoughts that i should not
i have feelings for those i shouldnt
i cry for things not in my control
i am haunted by the lives i dont live
but wish too
i am burdened by my own soul
i feel i trespass my own home
i wish health to my enemys
i wish wealth to my foes
i try to hard for those i cannot save
and try harder after ive failed
i lie to see you smile
i lie to save you pain
i hide in a shadow as you pass by
crying silently so you dont hear		  
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06:35pm 08/04/2004
  not gonna make it
not gonna win
never fast enough
never smart enough
never good enough
for you
the look i get
when you know the rest
the way you make me feel
like im not the best
like im nothing at all
the way you show me
they all do better
the way you tell me
i am a failure		  
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06:32pm 08/04/2004
  cant you see
what you do to me
cant you feel
the way i feel
the thoughts i think
of you and me
leave me breathless
i look to you
your eyes
your lips
your hips
oh god
the things i would do
if only allowed
when the time is right
to be so near
to hold you close
to hear your heart beat with mine
to feel the blood quick in your veins		  
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06:29pm 08/04/2004
  i see you as i want to be
blood flowing free
running down my arm
staining all the fine white hairs
no more pain
only freedom
free to be me
free to think the thoughts i wish to think
missign you more and more
as time wares on
wishing and willing the memories to stop		  
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